Sunday, December 21, 2008
So, a while back, I was sitting in the living room, resting my very sore toe, and Kharter runs through (which he's not allowed to do) and as he passes me, he slams his body into my toe which is pain without anyone touching it. I instinctivly screamed in paid and yelled that he was not supposed to run through the house. His response... "Are you turning into The Hulk, Mommy?"
I couldn't help but laugh though I think I managed to cover it up enough to finish the discipline for running. Tim was there and lost it... quiety.
So, in the words of Bruce Banner, "Don't make me angry. You wouldn't like me when I'm angry."
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Before I was a mom...
Sometimes the feelings associated with being a mom are very difficult to express. I felt the same way that a lot of my friends without children do now about being spit up on, icky noses, and dirty faces. It made me ill, to tell you the truth. But, there is something wonderfully strange that happens when you become a mother. All that gross stuff really doesn't seem that gross anymore (at least with your own children). Your stomach can actually take the sight of blood without freaking out, and the sight of a runny nose without vomiting; you instinctively know what to do when your child is hurt. You can sit and watch your children do their everyday things with a silly little smile on your face. And one day, your child will look back and you and say, "I love you, Mom"... 10 years later they will look at you and say, "Stop staring at me, Mom!"
I may have blogged this previously, but this was a moment I will never forget. I remember when I was pregnant with Kharter, towards the end, I asked my mom what I would do if everyone was wrong, and those motherly instincts never kicked in. She looked at me and said, "They already have." She was right. Though I didn't feel it at the time, and I was still incredibly nervous about what to do. And, even though I still fear the day my kids grow up and think they don't need me, or ask to stay the night at a friend's house with a parent I've never met, or even still ask to ride their bike around the neighborhood with their friends without me or Tim. I know deep down the strength will find me without having to dig too deep in my soul, to know the right answer.
And so, I'll leave you with this... Normally I don't like forwards, I don't like cute little "hit" comments, and I HATE chain emails and letters (deeply sorry to those dear friends of mine who send them to me). However, I was truly touched by this "hit" comment left to me by Angie. Of course, I can't give credit to an author because I have no idea how I could, but I wanted to share this with all of the mothers out there,... especially with the impending Mother's Day on Sunday! I just had to remove the "hit" portion and correct the grammatical errors. Even still, this was very insightful to me, this night, at 11:17pm.
"Before I was a mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a mom I had never been puked on, pooped on, chewed on, and peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts I slept all night.
Before I was a mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests, or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a mom.
Before I was a mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a mom."
Author - Unknow